I can do this.......

That is what I say when I'm feeling good, or meds have kicked in .........There is something to be said about meds.....  I'm no longer taking the strong stuff and I have graduated to a little pill twice a day....

Almost nine months now alone and living in a big house full of wonderful memories and a big 10 year old white cat, named Phoebe Grace......

Get calls to date or go out and mingle, but do not want to, and may never want to with the opposite sex.  Men make me nervous after loving someone like Dr. Hubby.  I'm afraid of them and how they will make me feel, so I chose to roam with the girls.  Will this change in years to come?  To be honest I hope not.  I think a man would only complicate my life.

Dr. Hubby and I met when we both were at the lowest in our entire life.  After we fell in Lust with each other, then Love like we'd never known, my life was complete, perfect and everything I had ever dreamed it could be.

He was gorgeous, and kind and so full of wisdom..... His character was flawless.

Is this how everyone is to live that love, then lose their special some one?  Are we just here to go thru the motions day after day after burying our love..?

Well, it has come to my attention that men get on with love lives much, much quicker than women.  How about 3-5 years sooner?  I have friends that have died and their husbands were married much less dating three months after the funeral.  As a woman, I find that sad.  Of course WE do know where the catsup is, and how to wash socks and underwear...... hee hee  I know, I know most men do tooo...

Being alone is not as bad as I dreaded....  Perhaps, I am a loner at heart. I enjoy reading and being on the  computer and traveling and yes, even eating out alone...  and I do like myself quite a lot....

I miss Dr. Hubby more today perhaps than at the beginning of this journey, but yes,  I really think I Can Do This....I think I have gone on with my life.... Perhaps in a different way then some....But yes, I have gone on...